Category Archives: Random Thoughts

Hello World

I have been away for a while but I am back. I had a bad day and I need an outlet. I have tried Twitter and Instagram, but neither of them are making me feel better. I put on Adele with headphones, but that hasn’t helped. I even poured a glass of wine.

My brain is mad at me today. I don’t really know why but I need to get some thoughts out in order to distract my brain long enough for me to take back control.

I recently broke down and started taking medication for my depression. I waged my war for decades, but I feel like I have lost, so on to the pill popping for me. The first 6 months were a bit boring, but doc added a second pill a couple of months ago. Since then I have been riding high and hard. It was inevitable that I would fall and thankfully it wasn’t too low.

I have to keep telling myself that #DepressionLies. If you ever feel like you want to make a difference in someone’s world, search social media for that hashtag and say something nice and encouraging to strangers. You could make someone’s day better or even save a life. While social media may be the entry way to hell, it can also help us send love and positive thoughts out on a much broader scale.

I appreciate you for reading my thoughts here.

Miley Cyrus is a Whore, but Daniel Radcliffe is a Stud

I try to stay away from calling people names, but this Miley Cyrus thing is getting way out of hand. People are so offended by her performance at the VMAs and are calling her racist and/or a slut even tasteless. I then read an article blaming women like Miley for rape or creating environments that perpetuate an atmosphere that leads to rape.

Miley Cyrus #twerks

Miley Cyrus #twerks

So why is Miley more shocking than others that do the same? According to viewers and commenters it is because we grew up watching Miley Cyrus grow up. Because Americans still see her as a child or even a teenager. Apparently women are not allowed to break out of their childhood roles like males are allowed to do.

What about Daniel Radcliffe? We grew up watching him and when he became an adult he did a lot more than just twerk. He went out and did a play wearing absolutely no clothes. Was there an uproar about this? Not that I heard. People rushed out to buy tickets.

Daniel Radcliffe #equus

Daniel Radcliffe #equus

Now I understand that being nude on stage can be a bit more artistic than twerking on stage, but who are we to decide what these actors do in order to break out of their wholesome childhood roles?

If Miley wants to make the decision to perform her act as she did and you are upset, don’t buy her music or movies or anything else she puts out. If she stops making money, she will change. When you get upset, though, ask yourself: Would I be this upset if a guy did this? If the answer is no, you are kind of a sexist and you might want to think about that.

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Balcony Gardener

I am trying my hand at gardening again. I went out this week and bought some rosemary plants, two pots and some soil. After a bit of work, I came up with this.


If this works out and I can keep at least half of the plants alive, I will work on expanding my garden.

Have you had any experience with balcony gardens? So you have any tips?

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Perfect to the Point of Abstinence

As my faithful followers know, I bought a domain name last year. After the fantastic run that I had in 2010 and 2011, I thought I was ready for the big time.

That purchase, however, was my downfall. My mind decided that since I was going to pay money to host this blog then I needed to make this blog more professional. I thought I needed to be QueerLandia. I thought I needed to work towards sponsors and contributors. I thought I needed perfection.

I couldn’t have been more wrong. My quirkiness disappeared and my strive for perfection reduced the number of posts. Slowly I went from posting three to five times a week to posting monthly. Finally, I just gave up. I wasn’t good enough. I didn’t have the right tools. I needed something else to make this work.

In short, I convinced myself that I wasn’t worthy of my own blog. This is 2013 though. I am accomplishing the impossible this year and failing miserably while succeeding beyond my belief. I used to be so terrified of failing that I stopped trying, but if you don’t try you can’t succeed.

So today I am going to try again. If I can quit smoking after nearly 25 years, I can do anything. I will do everything and I will fail, but I will also succeed.

Summer Break is Over


I haven’t posted in awhile. I like to tell myself that its because I was exhausted after managing two blogs last year while contributing to another blog. I also created a twitter account and a separate email address for my blogging. It was a lot to keep up with while working so many hours.

Honestly, though, I think I just stopped caring. I don’t know why, but I did. I ran out of opinions and got tired of talking about every gay issue until I was blue in the face. I was totally gayed out. I think I am back now. At least I hope I can keep coming back.

For those of you that kept coming back and hoping that a new post was here, I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. I appreciate the support. Now lets see if I can earn that support.

The Queer Women of Color Film Festival: June 8-10

The Queer Women of Color Film Festival is held every year in June in San Francisco and features films that address the vital social justice issues that concern women of color and our communities, authentically reflect our life stories, and build community through art and activism. Enjoy the creativity of emerging media artists who are Asian/Pacific Islander, Black/African American, Chicana/Latina, Native American and Mixed-Race lesbians, same-gender loving, bisexual, queer, questioning women, and genderqueer, gender non-conforming, transgender folks.

Now in its eighth year, the Festival started in June 2003 in one room at the San Francisco’s LGBT Community Center with a free screening that drew standing-room-only crowds. In 2005, the packed annual film screenings expanded into the 1st Annual Queer Women of Color Film Festival. In 2007, we expanded into the 375-seat Brava Theater. This year the festival has expanded again, moving to the 757-seat Novellus Theater at Yerba Buena Center for the Arts. The Film Festival is still free thanks to generous grants, donors and partners; includes free refreshments provided by local restaurants and businesses; and features an exciting panel and/or performance each year.

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1st Annual ALC Bachelor Calendar

AIDS LifeCycle has created a calendar to support the SF AIDS Foundation. The calendar has beautiful pictures for every month and is only $20. Additionally, all proceeds from this calendar will go directly towards fundraising efforts in support of the San Francisco AIDS Foundation.

The calendar is a great way to show your support, while getting beautiful, artistic pictures to hang in your office or home.

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‘Supermoon’ May Outshine Meteor Shower This Weekend – Yahoo! News

The biggest full moon of the year, a so-called “supermoon,” will take center stage when it rises this weekend, and may interfere with the peak of an annual meteor shower created by the leftovers from Halley’s comet.

The supermoon of 2012 is the biggest full moon of the year and will occur on Saturday (May 5) at 11:35 p.m. EDT (0335 May 6), though the moon may still appear full to skywatchers on the day before and after the actual event. At the same time, the annual Eta Aquarid meteor shower will be hitting its peak, NASA scientists say.

“Its light will wash out the fainter Eta Aquarid meteors,” NASA meteor expert Bill Cooke of the Marshall Space Flight Center told in an email. Still, Cooke said there’s a chance that the brightest fireballs from the meteor display may still be visible.

A supermoon occurs when the moon hits its full phase at the same time it makes closest approach to Earth for the month, a lunar milestone known as perigee. Scientists also refer to the event as a “perigee moon,” according to a NASA video on the 2012 supermoon.

via ‘Supermoon’ May Outshine Meteor Shower This Weekend – Yahoo! News.

Locally Grown, Small-Farmed Produce Can be Nearly Orgasmic*

*my experience may not be typical

Would you like some oranges? No? You might reconsider.

Some friends of mine gave me some oranges from the tree in their yard. The oranges weren’t the perfect, beautiful specimens that you see in the grocery store, but that didn’t matter. As I started peeling the first one, juice sprayed everywhere. These were the juiciest oranges that I have ever had in my life. But was it just from peeling them? Nope. Eating these oranges was almost an orgasmic experience. I was addicted from the first one, as if these oranges came from the original tree from a mythical garden.

Want some oranges now? I thought so. This experience has taught me a new lesson about the ugly duckling as well as the benefit of buying local, small-farmed fruits and vegetables. These oranges were not the prettiest, but they were the best in every other aspect. I would pay a dollar each to have more of these oranges, which my friends scoffed at as they handed me more, free of charge.

But knowing me, you know that nothing is truly free of charge. No product or service can be free. So how did I repay them? Well, I started with thank you and moved on to buying one of them a drink while tipping the other (he was the bartender that night).

But Jason had the best idea. He took the oranges and made an orange cake. Now remember, I don’t like cake. I find it boring. Cupcakes are great, but cakes in general just don’t appeal to me. This orange cake that Jason made for the Victorian Garden party was beyond any cake, though. This cake, made with locally grown and small-farmed oranges from our friends, was indecently delicious. I could eat that cake every day.

The moral? I don’t really have one; but, if you need a moral for every story, think about this: buying locally grown fruits cuts back on the pollution in the world, while supporting people in your area and helping your city/state. Buying locally grown fruit gives you a chance to see where the fruit comes from (well, if you go to the place instead of a farmer’s market. Locally grown fruit isn’t put through the rigorousness needed to ensure “perfect looking fruit”. Therefore, if you can afford it, you need to spend the extra few bucks on your fruits and vegetables and get them locally. You will get a superior product that is healthier for you and the world around us.

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